Midfulness

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Today I met my dear colleague for an early breakfast. We share some insights about our work and how difficult it is behind those glamour and outward appearance. Our job aren't easy as everybody thinks. It was an uplifting conversation.

Then I picked up my kids from home to just have some giggling and bonding. I invited them for lunch and went to the mall and have some short conversation while driving. A quality time with them. While at lunch, I receive the much awaited call and received a news that is different from what I desired and planned. When I break the sad news my daughter gave me a big hug and tell me Mom its not your time yet. Those are the strong whisper that keeps me going. Despite the pain and disappointment I had to pick up the pieces and bounce back and charge it to experience.

My Facebook post was just right about mindfulness. In life we have to be prepared when things don't go as planned. We have to accept it with an open heart, willing to experience the pain, let go and move on. I have learned to look at it at the brighter side. How do I do it better next time, how do I package myself so well that I will be sought after and not having to search.

The pain allows me to take inventory of myself and what I have and how I can do better out of what I have. I realize I have more to give and more to accomplish. I need more time to prepare for the role and poise myself into the realm that I want to achieve in life. There is still time, there is still hope and I just need to wait patiently and prepare for the good breaks that God has instored for me while serving him faithfully.